Coke Bottle

Father

2006-05-26T16:12:00.000-07:00

I'm kind of pissed off at my dad now. I think my mum and I are on better terms now... it's just my fucking dad. I think he's the one who needs to get a life. & to think I was gonna do him a favor and tell his ass what he wants to know. He could go give birth to a cow for all I care. No wonder why my mum goes out... She doesn't have to deal with this idiot.

mood: annoyed by an idiot.

Rant #2

2006-05-25T01:20:00.000-07:00

I could feel my friends drifting further from the friendship zone. I picture them on a little sail boat waving sadly... Goodbye. I don't care at the moment, but something inside of me feels sad. The only friend I have none other than myself, but that's isn't any fun... So far I haven't the slightest clue on what to do. Well, the only solution I've come up with, is to avoid them & sleep. Fuck... I'm one depressed bitch aint I? Sleeping all the time. Why am I depressed? Why are my thoughts sooo dark&sad. Like you people would say "I need help" But do I??? I know I'm not alone, and this is part of the teenage phase blah blah blah, but why does it have to be sooo painful? As if it were eating my insides alive slowly... Enjoying each bite & enjoying itself as I wince at the pain. Life is a damn shame. Save yourself and die young. Why do you think I smoke like a dragon? It's "cool" (not really) & I'll die of lung cancer yay!!! I need help.

mood: DEPRESSED!! wah.... I am a weak mother fucker. d:

Mother

2006-05-25T01:10:00.000-07:00

There are times where I'd want to yell in your face. Tell you to quit your shit... There are time where I'd say thanks... For the way you raised me *sarcastic*. There are times where I'd want to smack your power hungry face, for watching me suffer at your commands with satisfaction. There are time where I'd want to tell you to shove off and stop cheating on dad. There are time where I was sooo close to calling you a whore. There are times where I soooo badly wanted to smash your damn cell phone. Or maybe just delete all you're "contacts" so you would stop cheating on dad. There are time where I'd be sooo close to telling dad what I saw. There'd be times where I'd want to laugh in your face, cause I, your own damn daughter caught you. Please mother... Don't add on the list. I'm getting fed up.

mood: Hella depressed.

Rant #1

2006-05-24T09:17:00.000-07:00

2:15 am just woke up...
my sleeping habits are getting stranger each day....
Well, anyway the girl who has my camera didn't show up. I've been miss that thing for a couple of months. She admit that she had it, when she kept telling me she didn't... right to my face. She'll die tomorrow. I hate liars.

mood: Content, but wanna be fucking out of control.